Just when i thought i had everything sorted for returning to lboro the uni rang me up with a placement offer......so im going to live in northampton! i should have turned it down really as i totally had my heart set on graduating this year and i know what a physical struggle it will be for me. so its probably not the best decision ive ever made however it is a very good placement and im hoping ill be able to save up some money. also if im not too tired at the weekends i should be able to drive home or to lboro:) now i just have to make a final decision on where im going to rent and i can start packing....

Yesterday was a good day, went horseriding after lunch. Was just me on what was suposed to be a group lesson. It was good though because it meant the instructor picked up on a couple of bad habits I have and so I can make some improvements on those. Hopefully will be able to build my fitness up too. Also picked up my new car at five which was exciting, just waiting for the weather to improve so I can give it a good wash. I should be feeling happy now but I just feel a bit low, partly because im worn out from riding but also because I have to drive the new car to Coventry soon and im a bit worried about not being able to remember the route! My memory is really starting to go at the moment and its a big pain in the ass. Just cant wait to have a motorway lesson so I can get back to Loughborough. Then I can get the new house sorted and meet up with some of my Uni mates again. Hanging around in Knowle isn't exactly the height of excitement. Although if I get the chance I might go back down to London and possibly to Cambridge too for Jen's bday which will be something to look forward to.

Im very excited as im going to see a car on tuesday. I rang up and its not arrived yet so they are going to call me when it arrives. hopefully I can put down a deposit before anyone else gets in there! This is assuming its all in good condition of course! Its a Golf 1998 1.4 S 3DR didnt think Id be able to afford such a modern car. Its red too so obviously I have to buy it if its any good!! Really hoping I haven't jinxed myself now, i'll be very upset if its not any good or if someone else buys it.

P.S I have changed some of the questions on the voting page and am uploading as many photos as poss onto flickr.

Sometimes I think the only thing that keeps me going round here is the thought that in the end surely everyone gets what they deserve. Or at least the bad guy does.

Woke up this morning feeling like crap think I must be having bad dreams, felt really depressed for not really doing anything with my life then I fell asleep again and woke up feeling better. I also remember dreaming that I had twin babies and the female baby was called Anela, was seriously bazaar! Pretty bored now that Im back from seeing Lauren was great to see her even though we didnt do a lot just hung out at her house and played a never ending game of monopoly. We did go into Bath one day and met up with one of her friends from uni tho, the whole day was really good fun and I was particulary amused by watching the fire brigade rescuing a boat of stranded tourists. Im really sad Lauren is going to Italy but I cant wait to visit her as I've always wanted to go to Italy. Im planning on going over with her uni mate chris so even if Lauren is off doing her volunter work etc.. chris and I can go siteseeing. Feeling a bit stressed right now as my dad has found some people for me to contact about placements but its getting a bit late to sort stuff like that out. If I do get offered one I then have to try and find someone to rent my room in Loughborough and possibly find somewhere to live depending where the placement is and buy a car too all in a very very small amount of time. However even though I really really just wanna finish my degree If I do get offered one of the places its too good an opportunity to turn down as unlike most of the placements available these are all places Id really like to work for. In a way Im kindda hoping they'll turn me down as it saves me a lot of hassle and then I can go on and graduate next year knowing that at least I applied, stupid huh?

Just been trying to upload more photos onto the site, problem is bravehost only allows photos with a file size of 150 or less so at the moment ive just given up! Got back from Shantels wedding friday, had a fantastic day and Shantel looked amazing. Was sad when the night had to end i was having so much fun. Caught up with a few people i havent seen since the engagement party last year inc shons cousin and another of petes friends whose name i cant remember! im hoping ill be able to see the wedding video at some point on which im sure the film of the dancefloor will definately be a highlight!! Hopefully it wont be so long til i see everyone again next time. After the wedding some of us inc bride and groom stayed in the nearby ivy hotel so we were able to see each other for breakfast the next morning and say all our goodbyes. Shantel and Pete started their two week cruise yesterday so im looking forward to hearing what it was like when they get back.

Well only one exam to go...the exam of absolute doom...
Feeling better after my first double module exam went better than expected, think I failed my single module one on fri but as long as get through all the others then everything will be fine. May have a house for next year on the same street! Think ill keep applying for placements over summer and if i do get one somewhere else (which aint very likely now) I can always find someone else to take my room. Unfortunately will be living with strangers as all my mates have houses sorted now, had offers to live with friends of friends but figure I need to get things sorted this week. I could use some new mates anyway!! as half of mine are graduating this yr sob! some people im really gonna miss :(
I dunno how im gonna get through this exam its 'thermodynamics and phase equlibria' and Ive missed quite a few lectures as I wasnt well enough to go to them. Plus I have about as much motivation as a dead fish. Really if anyone is good at electrochemistry and/or crystallography please help me!! ill give u chocolate! :)
Cant wait for the summer what with the holiday so soon and shon's wedding and plans to see mates from travelling who I havent seen in yrs! we're so bad at these reunions! also planning on spending some time with alex in london if she doesnt get a job over summer, turns out this summer is gonna be a lot better than i thought it would be!!

p.s. just added photos from AU ball, the ones with small enough file sizes anyway!

fed up fed up fed up,
life is boring,
life is poo.

Well quite a few things have happened since i last wrote in here. What with the strange incidents at the end of the AU ball, seeing dave sing in an acoustic set plus the odd random night out. Really tired and in quite a lot of pain at the mo unfortunately think ive been working too hard! cant wait til this week is over so much coursework and other stuff going on plus i want to try and make it out on thurs to see supergrass as its petes birthday celebration.AAARRRGGGHHH oh well im sure it'll all get sorted in the end, wish me luck!!!

Well lets hope for once justice can be done. Knowing how bad our supposed 'justice' system all we can do is hope and pray that for once the bad guy gets what he deserves.